I have wanted to write for a bit now but was afraid it would interfere with my revisions of the most recent story, which I really just want to be done.

However, I finished the most recent draft and have not yet heard back from either of the readers I sent it to to be torn apart. This is a necessary part of my process because I have a very, very big problem for a writer.

I hate re-reading my own stories. It's not that I think they're bad or anything. It's just I already know what happens so it's not as interesting as reading something *new*. And unlike some of my favorites I can't re-read my stuff to gain new insights and thoughts because I know what it means, where the ideas came from, what it's trying to say and do. There's no mystery. So even when I do read through my stories I generally do it too quickly and with too little attention to be of any use.

But, this is not what this entry was supposed to be about. This entry is to celebrate that I have a new idea. This is unprecedented.

See, while I may have wanted to write, I had nothing to write about. It generally takes up to three months before I can focus on a new idea after finishing a story. For Clarion I had to have a whole list of ideas before I went.

Yet, here I am only a couple of weeks away from a completed first draft and an idea has come to me that I am excited to write about. It gives me hope that perhaps I can start being more prolific.

On the other hand, I may have to ponder the idea for weeks before I can get it on paper. That often happens to me. Even if it goes that way, at least I have one. I'm ahead of the game for now.