Wow, hard to believe it has been so long since I posted here.

I feel ashamed, especially since I enjoy reading everyone else's posts. But there you go, I get so easily distracted by everyday life. I'm also the reigning queen of procrastination - self-proclaimed of course.

First big note, I have found my soul mate. Now don't get too excited! It's not going to work out because after falling head-over-heels in love, found out he is not divorced, just separated and I have no illusions about him going through with a divorce to be with me. The good part is that now I know there was someone meant for me - just bad timing. So after getting past the initial shock, heartbreak (seems like a recurring theme with me doesn't it!) and finally into the acceptance phase, I have become adjusted. Tried to sever all contact but found I couldn't sleep, eat and breath so compromised and am satisfied with occasional phone conversations. I've never been one who was absolutely certain when making decisions or how to handle situations. Until now. There is no doubt in my heart or mind that this person and I would be incredible together. Oh well. I'll take what I've got and live with it. And the blessing is that I don't have to wonder any more if there is someone for me.

Second note, I finally went for my "annual" physical (yes, I procrastinate and it's been a couple of years). I only went because my doctor refused to refill my prescriptions until I came in to see her. Good news is that for the first time in forever all my bloodwork was within normal range, including my A1C which is the diabetic's nightmare number! Guess losing 40 pounds has helped more than I dreamed.

Of course, I had to endure the disgusting part of the physical and it was fine as well. Ladies, you know what I mean. I also agreed to have a mammogram (haven't had one in four years). Aye, therein lies the rub! Had the squeezogram, got called in for additional films, ultrasound - and the dreaded "BIOPSY" word was thrown around. However, the radiologist asked for spot compression magnification views and yes they are just as horrible as they sound but did finally conclude that I have a cyst - not cancerous but does need to be drained. Praise God!

Now I know that some of you - well, probably most of you - are thinking why on earth do I wait between doctor visits. The simple answer is that I hate the personal invasion of my body. I guess I am a throwback to another time because it mortifies me. So now I think I can get another couple of years grace by stalling tactics! I hope!

Final note, I am going to make a definite effort to keep this journal more up to date. Now about that bridge in Arizona I have for sale .... DJ