Only five more days until I see the doctor and get my medication switched to Zoloft. I don't know if that will be better for me or worse. But anything is better than the difficulty breathing, suicidal thinking, depression, and anxiety that I've been having lately as well as extreme "Obsessive Compulsive Disorder".

I've also had insomnia too. I've tried explaining to the judge how medication is not going to help me in the long run but he didn't listen and put me on that "Alternative Treatment Order", where I HAVE to take my medication for six months. I did as obeyed, and they still made it SIX MORE MONTHS. Really unfair.

I heard about the drug "Stablon", only to find out it's illegal in the "United States Of America" and "UK". The drug is also known as "Tianeptine". I heard of the funky side effect where it turned your eyes different colors and how it doesn't help you in the long run. So I decided not to risk being thrown in jail over "Stablon" with my psychiatrist and not to take it.