Okay, so we had my ATO meeting, right? I was being good like my mom wanted me to be. I was even being calm. Then my doctor gave me a choice between a single pill that is 150 mg of Lamictal (the equivalent of my 6 baby pills) or 250 mg of Lamictal. I said 150 mg. She said 200 mg. I feel like she's not listening to me and that she isn't working with me to find the best dosage and medication.

See, I'm fine on four Lamictal. When on six Lamictal, I experience being in and out of unconsiousness sometimes. Dekante didn't advocate me and tell my doctor when he said he would. Instead, when the doctor asked him he was silent. I was upset about that, too.

I do fear that if I take 200 mg of Lamictal, that I won't be able to move and communicate that to staff like the one patient on 300 mg on Lamictal. I was hurt, confused, puzzled and angry after that ATO meeting for those reasons. At least Rebecca and Cheryl Petty understood, they said they'll let Dr. Bright know how I feel.