I've been anxious a lot about my birthday. I guess I'll have to date someone who is my potential, trustworthy, kind, nice and sweet as well as honest and loyal. Someone who is friendly, and faithful. Someone who will NOT abuse me, physically, sexually or verbally. The kind of person who will admit that I'm his girlfriend proudly when girls joke about other girls being his girlfriend or when another girl tries to flirt with him. Same goes for if I have a girlfriend.

This isn't too hard to ask for. I mean, I am fed up with the person I had a crush on recently, who I unfortunately invited to my birthday party. My fourteenth ex-boyfriend I don't mind inviting to the birthday party, even though he broke my heart (thinking about it hurts a little).

I hope the birthday party goes well. I mean, I'm anxious about it and if it turns out to be a disaster it's on me. I don't want to be rude or mean, because that's why I still let my crush to the birthday party despite the incident that angered me.