I'm tired today. I guess four days off will do that to you huh? :)

I'm still sad that Mommie had to leave, I'm sad everytime she goes. She is one of the only people in the world I miss when I'm not with them. Part of that is the borderline personality disorder. People who are borderlines have a very hard time remembering emotionally what it feels like when they are with the people they love. That's also why we tend to be pack-rats. We keep the strangest things, not because we really like nick-nacks or junk (even though some of us do!) but because this "junk" helps remind us of what it feels like to be with people we love.

It's weird, I know this, but it's my reality.

So, the days when Mommie needs to leave are hard for me. Yesterday was a little worse than usual because of the phone call from the doctors office.

I went in to see the doctors today, well actually I saw a nurse, and they explained to me my new diet. I did get some answers, I do not have gestational diabetes. Only one of my results were high. They do want to keep an eye on my sugar levels so they want me to start this diet and they are going to check my sugar levels at each of my doctors appointments.

I have to start seeing the doctor every two weeks now, and next month I get to go in and see them every week. I am not looking forward to this as I believe my doctors are flaming imbeciles. However, I do have a Muffin to take care of, so I will go to these appointments. I'll just pay the little buggah back later! hehehehe :)

I get to see a new doctor the next time I go in. From what I understand I will rotate between the other 4 or 5 doctors at the practice until I give birth. They operate on a rotating call schedule, so they want me to meet all the doctors before I go into labor. That way, I've met whoever is lucky enough to be the one delivering my Muffin.

I was joking with MD, I told him that if I don't like the doctor that's on call when I go into labor, I'll just hold it in until the next doctor comes up!

I know that won't work, there is no holding it in. I'm not going to worry about who will be delivering, as long as Muffin is born safe, I don't care.

Mommie and MD and I have picked out a crib. Mommie will be ordering it here soon. I'm not too worried about having the crib before Muffin is born because we already have the basinett, thanks to Reenie who is wonderful, so Muffin won't be using a crib for a few months.

There has been so many things changing and shifting. It's hard to keep up with all that is going on, but I've made it this far with my sanity, I think I can make it to the delivery. After that I know my sanity will be gone for good. It's a sacrafice I'm willing to make to have a son :)

I guess as I'm saying hi to Muffin, I'll be waving buh bye to my last shreds of sanity :)

I can't wait.