Muffin has the hiccups. Yes, he has them right now as I'm typing this. This is the first time I've felt the hiccups even though I've read that babies are supposed to get them sooner than this. He's had them now for almost five minutes. I can't explain how awesome it is to feel your baby move inside you.

I know after he's born that's what I'll miss most about being pregnant.

He's practicing for his first breath and in a little more than two months he'll be taking that breath. I can't believe it.:)

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I had to grind it out at work today. I had 15 reservations when I came in and 18 rooms to sell. I knew we'd probably sell out (or get close to it) so I knew I'd have to sell those 18 rooms. I've sold all but three of them. I don't really mind nights where I have to grind it out and sell rooms to walk-ins instead of just having to check in reservations. It's a little harder, but it makes the shift go by faster.

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I didn't do much of anything yesterday. I picked up the house a little. I wanted to do more, but I was tired and I knew it was more important for me to rest.

see Mommie, and everyone else, I'm listening :)

I worked on my class a little too and I'll be studying for the midterm for a few days before I tackle that. I'm glad to be halfway done.

I have felt kinda yucky for a few days. I start to think about everything going on and I know I'm overwhelmed. I try to take it in small parts, but sometimes even the small parts are overwhelming.

I know everything will be okay. I know that worrying doesn't solve or help anything so I'm trying to relax. The reality of my situation sinks in more and more each day and I feel like it gets a little harder to breath.

I really am doing the best that I can, and at the end of the day I know my best is good enough. I just know that for the rest of my life I will never be able to do enough for Muffin. No matter how much I do, I won't ever feel like it's enough.

I guess that's part of what people mean when they talk about mothers guilt. Maybe the way I feel is partly because of that. I understand now the desire to do everything for your children and the realization that it is not possible.

I think sometimes I'm too hard on myself.

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I'm tired today, I can't wait to get home and lay on the couch. Yup, laying on the couch is my favorite activity. Well, that and taking a bath. :)

Maybe I'll do both when I get home.