I’m tired today.

Hell, I’m tired everyday. I think baking a Muffin will do that to you :)

He won’t be baking much longer, only about two more months or so. I get more and more excited as each day goes by. I can’t wait to see him and hold his tiny little hands. I can’t wait to snuggly buggly with him on the couch. I really can’t wait to see Mommie with him. I’m really looking forward to that because I have this feeling that the two of them are going to be buddies.

I also can’t wait to see Gramma with him. And I’m with Mommie on this one; I’m taking millions of pictures.

Back in December, Mommie and I had gone out to see Gramma and Gramma told us they wouldn’t be able to operate on the cancer this time, and that pretty much all she was doing now was undergoing treatments to prolong her life.

As you can imagine, Mommie and I were hysterical. Not in front of Gramma, never in front of her, but on the way home. I remember telling Mommie that I could not imagine my life without Gramma, that there was still so much I needed her here for. I told Mommie that Gramma would never see me get married, or have my babies, or any of those milestones I knew I was going to go through, and that I would feel her departure as an actual physical hole in my life.

You know what, I was pregnant with Muffin when I said that. Once again, the Universe got the final say. Gramma will see my have my Muffin, and there is no way for me to express how grateful I am for that. I understand how much little Muffin means to the people I most care about and that has made this such a beautiful experience for me. I think about the birth of my son, and I know the inspiration that gives me, I know the hope it fills me with, and I also understand that I’m not the only one who feels these things.

Muffin certainly won’t have any shortage of love in his life, and that makes me a happy Momma. :)

I cannot wait for my baby shower. I am sooooo excited about it. Cameron’s Mommy has been so wonderful; Mommie and I have a plan for a thank you. The shower is only two weeks away, and then four or five weeks after that I should be having my Muffin!!!

I can’t believe it’s almost over. I’m excited about that, but I’m a little sad too. I really do like being pregnant, for the most part, and I won’t be for much longer.

I think I’ll go now and finish my shift, only 2 and a half hours left. Then I’m going home and snuggly buggling with MD till bedtime.

Right now I think life is good.