Labor day has come and gone, and there is still no labor for me :)

MD keeps telling Muffin to hold on until his vacation starts, maybe he's listening. My feeling is that if he is, it might be the first and only time.

I've been putting together my "to contact list" for when Muffin is born. Mommie has everyone's email and I have all the phone numbers I need. I'm happy that I have all of that together because only the most special people will get the news!

Sadly, but not surprisingly, there are certain members of my biological family that I will not be contacting at all regaurding the birth of my son. Too bad, so sad. If they want the news they better hope they know someone who will spill it cause I'm not going to. Some of these people, who like to nose around where they don't belong, do not deserve to even know his name. They will never see him, they will never have anything to do with him. They don't deserve to know him. And if I have anything to do with it they won't ever know him. That's the only way that I know of for sure that I can keep them from hurting him the way that they've tried to hurt other people. I will never put him in a position where it is possible for them to treat him that way.

I think of the way people have treated me, especially now that I'm having a child of my own, and if that is any indication of the kind of people they are, my life and that of my son's is MUCH better off without them.

But there is another side to that coin as well. There have been so many people who have poured out such love and light and good things towards Muffins birth. These are the people I want him to know, these are the people who will bring good things into his life. For these people I am so grateful. These are the people on the To Contact List and I love you all dearly.

I know Mommie has already said, but for anyone that wants all the news, make sure Mommie or I have your email or number.

Mommie is so cute, and so excited. We all are and that is a very good thing. I never thought I could feel so much light and hope. I'm thinking to myself that if Muffin has already brought so much of that and he's not even been born, how much more will there be in my life after he is. I think that's part of being a parent that you can never prepare for, the flooding of emotion that follows.

And I guess that brings me back to the family aspect. I look at my father and wonder all the time how he could treat his children the way he has/does. Now that I'm ready to have a child of my own it boggles my mind even more. I ask myself, did he ever feel this way towards us kids?

If he did, I never saw it. Not even once.

His loss, big time.

And that goes for anyone else who has hurt me or my family. Those people are dead to me, and it is so their loss.

Big Time.
:)