Back to the real world, or so it is as I perceive it . . . .

Three more days until I take my final final. I cannot make heads or tails of the material. It is open book, so I hope that it helps that I can regurgitate the facts and whatnot verbatim, without the slightest understanding of what any of it means-- like what I did with French in high school. Je ne comprende pas. Je parle le lange francaise un peu.

One more mile 'til I lay rest.
I have put myself through this rigid test
Still the mile has not ended,
and no distance has been gained.
I do not feel greatness
All I feel is pain.
--From Audio Adrenaline's Rest Easy

Odd that after twenty-one years of school (including kindergarten) that my last exam as a full-time student would be on a subject that I neither like nor comprehend. I have regressed. On the first day of school, I walked in knowing that I wanted to learn and learning something. (Lots of somethings.) And now I feel that this last exam will simply prove to purge me of what little I have temporarily crammed into my noggin. This exam will be my unlearning. I feel like after I take this test, I will walk out not knowing anything. I will have lost my ability to read, write, comprehend, all knowledge of the alphabet, and even my name(s).

Soon the mile will end, and I can rest. Whether that be more ignorant than before, I neither know nor care. I just want chocolate and sleep.

--Hooper