http://www.journalscape.com/J_Doll20 My Journal, My Life Copyright 2013, J_Doll20 http://www.journalscape.com/rssdocs.html custsupport@journalscape.com (JournalScape Support) JournalScape RSS Generator v1.0 http://www.journalscape.com/images/poweredby.gif http://www.journalscape.com/J_Doll20 http://www.journalscape.com/J_Doll20/2012-06-27-21:01/ Lately, I'm noticing that my boyfriend's attitude isn't improving. We've talked and talked and discussed what we can do to better our attitudes together but it seems like we're getting nowhere. Honestly I feel like he isn't listening to me about how I feel about the way he talk to me. He act like it's my fault because he says that I don't listen to him -___-' that gets so annoying because I know that I listen, he just want everything his way. I'm tired of being talked to like I'm a child but I don't want tolet him go because he needs to fix his ways..well honestly acknowledge them. His excuse is that he isn't a emotional person(i get get it) and that he's a man, he deal with things differently.(i get that too) but i'm a woman and i need him to hear me out and respect my feelings. I feel like i have to protect my feelings from him so i won't get hurt and cry. I want to get a therapist or counselor because we both think we're right but nothing is improving. jocyjocy18@hotmail.com (J_Doll20) http://www.journalscape.com/J_Doll20/2012-06-27-21:01/ Wed, 27 Jun 2012 21:01:00 GMT http://www.journalscape.com/J_Doll20/2012-06-17-12:52/ I am so excited to turn 20! I'm enjoy being 19 but 20 is on its way :D I hope I have my own place not to long after I turn twenty. Their are so many things that I want to do and I've been pre planning already. My mom gets upset when I talk about getting my own place. She thinks that she did something wrong, which isn't true. I just want to have my own space and start my own life. I'm hoping my bf is thinking the same thing, because he is 24 and hasn't moved out of his moms place. His mom have issues with letting him grow which is selfish but, my bf has his own mind as well. Anyway, it's about me and my plans, he can either join along or stay behind. I love him but I don't want to make anyone do anything that they aren't interested in doing. Hold on, before I go off sounding selfish.. I asked him how it felt moving in together but I felt like that was too pushy and the idea is out their. He said with excitement and he would enjoy waking u to seeing and being with me all of the time BUT..he isn't participating in the home search. O.o so I'm not going to mention it to him anymore, I want him to want this not do it by force. jocyjocy18@hotmail.com (J_Doll20) http://www.journalscape.com/J_Doll20/comments/149673 http://www.journalscape.com/J_Doll20/2012-06-17-12:52/ Sun, 17 Jun 2012 12:52:00 GMT http://www.journalscape.com/J_Doll20/2012-06-16-17:54/ I admire how my boyfriend care about me, but sometime I feel like he's controlling me. I don't mind doing things for him, I quite enjoy that but I do not like it when someone want me to feel a certain way when I tell them the opposite. I'm not sure if it's just a guy thing, not wanting to deal with emotions or "drama"..but I need his support. Sometime I feel it's going to take some time, it's about 7 months into our relationship. I hope things will get better. jocyjocy18@hotmail.com (J_Doll20) http://www.journalscape.com/J_Doll20/comments/149668 http://www.journalscape.com/J_Doll20/2012-06-16-17:54/ Sat, 16 Jun 2012 17:54:00 GMT http://www.journalscape.com/J_Doll20/2012-06-15-12:49/ Well, I'm back home. I didn't think that I would be back this soon. I'm a freshman in college, majoring in health care science. I stayed with my boyfriend and mom. I know, seems like a bad idea right? Well I didn't think that I would be so desperate to start college nn time AND on top of that, I would be wih my boyfriend. He offered for me to stay with him because my loan for school wouldn't have been active until next quarter which is 2 months after my classes start. It took me a while to accept the offer because my mom think that it's to early in the relationship and unorthidox to live with a guy before marriage. I felt somewhat the same way especially just been in the relationship for 6 months. Anyway, I moved in with him and his mom and it wasn't anything how I thought it would be. I got to really see how my boyfriend lived on a daily basis, and his mom. Things got really difficult but greatfully not between me and my boyfriend. When I met his mom in the beginning of our relationship, she was completely different but when I seen her constantly, she really became compfortable with what she said and acted. I didn't feel compfortable their especially when my boyfriend rarely stood up for me and what I was going through with his mom. I constantly felt like I was isolated and tooken for granted. I didn't want me and my boyfriend's relationship to end over a decison we made on with me moving in and how his mother acted; so I moved back home after my first semester finished. He was upset because I didn't discuss with him that I was leaving THIS TIME. There were other times that I packed up and left even when I told him but he is so blinded about my feelings and how his mom treated me and always took her side. That made me feel so bad emotionally and mentally and I wasn't going to deal with it anymore. When I would try talking to her about how I felt and how she treated me, she would just get up and walk away as if I wasn't talking to her. :\ Again, I was fed up with the disrespect and constantly crying and being isolated in someone elses home. I know when you're in someone elses home, you're suppose to respect that. I do and did. I helped her clean and half the time she wasn't their so I took ignitiative to do the cleaning and cooking. She started demanding and expecting me to do things in a rude manner. My mother never spoken to me the way she did so imagine how shocked and aggravated I felt. I really don't know why she treated me that way but I strongly know that my boyfriend will take her side even when he say he will always choose me but that will never happen. I don't want to be in situations when I feel irrelevent and last when it come to my feelings. I respect how he respects her but I need that respect from him and she'll respect me too. Since I've been home for the past 2 weeks, I've been pretty happy. I miss him far as seeing him everyday and spending time with him but I know it's the best thing for now until we make the next step in our lives. jocyjocy18@hotmail.com (J_Doll20) http://www.journalscape.com/J_Doll20/comments/149651 http://www.journalscape.com/J_Doll20/2012-06-15-12:49/ Fri, 15 Jun 2012 12:49:00 GMT