I have been fairly depressed today and I wasn't really sure why. I know that I have been feeling low key since returning from Vegas but this seemed different. While standing at work, folding infants clothing, I remembered something one of the Veteran's wives had said (and something Charlie had mentioned earlier in the day).

She stated that her husband had many anniversaries, some good...birthdays, wedding anniversaries, and then there were the other anniversaries... the ones attributed to
Vietnam, the ones that triggered PTSD.

All of the sudden it became crystal clear.

Tomorrow night is the anniversary of Hurricane Ivan coming ashore in Pensacola, Florida.

I knew in my mind that the anniversary of Hurricane Ivan was around the corner, but I didn't think my heart and soul would remember.

Hurricane Ivan triggered the beginning of a very rough time in my life. For almost six months, I was in a state of depression and pain that seemed to be a never ending downward spiral for me.

Looking back, I only now realize how much it took out of me and I am very grateful that I was able to get help and that my life continues to get better everyday.

I am immensely sorry for the pain I know that I caused during that time. Thank you to everyone who helped me through my darkest hours. I know that I am a stronger person now.

This may not be an anniversary that I wish to celebrate, but I know that I will never forget.