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2013-08-03 6:46 PM
Fighting again

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so cat and i have been fighting again this time it got to the point where i said "if im not making your happy anymore i'll leave" i was going to pack up and stay at a motel till i went back to work and just find a place to stay with a work mate untill i could find a more perment place. i couldnt bring myself to pack anything i was eyeing it all off ready to pack.
i dont know what to do the fighting is getting to much and just making me depressed, sure she has been a bit worried about court (custy battle), but she still seamed to be happy around noah.
this is the way things go at the moment on a average weekday. cat goes to work 8:30am i'll message her during the day just asking about whats going on with shopping, movies, what she wants for lunch (occasanly) what we can do on the weekend. she takes ages to reply yet if i dont reply after about 20mins she rings (when this happens im normaly sleeping so thats why i dont reply).
anwway after work (4:30pm) she gets home sometimes says hi but not with a kiss anymore. will take xena for a walk get home then spend time with noah and then sit on her phone playing candy crush or facebooking, then she'll shower and feed him we'll watch a move once she has made tea then she'll shower and watch tv till i fall asleep then later she go to sleep to. she'll wake up grumpy beacause she didnt get a full sleep. it seams like on weekdays i'm just a movie buddie lately.
we are ment to be trying for a kid yet she doesnt want to have sex all the time and only a couple months ago she was having a go at me beaucae i didnt want sex all the time.

i basicly cleared out my saving to pay for the garden and am still paying more on top of that. we did have enough money but it went to the laywer.
it seams latly the more i care about her the less she cares for me. everytime im at the shops i always get her somthing no matter how big or small, just seams like she doesnt care anymore.

she is saying she hasnt been happy in a while and i feel the same, i feel like she is no the same person i feel in love with only a year ago. our 1 year wedding annaversiry is coming up on my next week off.
im not sure if i want to celebrate it i feel like the end of our reltionship is so close, today at work i had sometime to think and i basicly convinsid my self it was over but another part or me is saying she is your wife you must try harder i want to but it just seams like it gets thrown back in my face i do alot for her and sometimes all i want in a thank you with out me having to remind her to thank me.

she also mentiond last night on the phone im controlling but when i asked her for examples she couldnt give me any,
i know i am controlling in someway like money.

COURT:
so went to court with cat on wendsday and met the lawyer,
in the end they came to an agrement every atenative fri-sun and every other sunday 9am-1:30pm he also wanted half th school holidays which doesnt work beause noah is in day care and cat get penalised if he doesnt go,
he got fathers day which is fair enough. its going to go back to court in feburay if the agreement does work.

havnt seen skye in about 6 months now its the longest its ever been it get me upset when i think about it but i cant blame anyone apart from myself, when i do have money i waste it and i want cat to come with me to adelaide and i dont think she'd trust me to go alone anyway beaucse my ex is there, ive been trying to get her to come here but her mom wont allow her to fly alone even though she wil be supervised by the flight staff at all time.
i really miss her i should just go but then it'll start a big fight with cat.

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