:Shennanigans:

I did manage two hours of sleep thus far. Doctors' appointments are swirling in my mind, along with a plethora of other thoughts.

Today, I have back to back doctors' appointments beginning at 8:30am, which then go back to back about every hour until 3:30pm. It is going to be a long day; and there is nothing that can be done about it. It just has to be.

Then, R gets to work the next five straight nights, including tonight - after being with me (required) at all the doctors' appointments. Oh yes, this week is certainly not for the faint hearted.

I have yet more doctors' appointments on Friday, to boot. And chores. And errands. And one lunch with a colleague from work. At least there is something fun and light planned in there.

But the da** hamsters. Just cannot manage to get them to stop running in their wheels and let my mind be at ease, even for a night of sleep. As public as I am trying to be with alot of things, some things I am still uncomfortable discussing here in public - and perhaps uncomfortable still discussing in private. Geesh. I would blame the indecision and insanity on the brain tumor, but that is lame. I am not one for indecision, however, and it makes me very unhappy to have it draped over me like a wet rug. In any case, a private entry follows - and it is not done for mystery or to taunt anyone; it just feels a little better that some issues remain closer to home. Just shoot an email if you want the sign-in info so I know who is reading the more intimate stuff.

The bigger things include paying bills while I am out for recovery from work, best and worst case scenarios following the surgery, whether my expectations are truly realistic, whether R can afford to keep the house we bought in the worst case scenario, what to emotionally expect when I wake up...you know, just lots of *stuff* floating about and giving the hamsters adrenaline to keep on running.

To keep ourselves more on the brighter side of things, we have "To-Do" plans for following recovery: short and long trips we plan to make together, things we plan to accomplish together, and what we want to be able to provide for one another in the coming years of a LONG marriage. Scout, yes, Seattle is on the list, as is St. Louis and its arch, Netta! The honeymoon we did not take because we bought the house is there too. They seem so silly to us, actually, in light of the re-evaluation of what is important following this mess, but all the doctors agree that it is an important list to have and to aim for, so we are listening.

I also have a short-term recovery "To-Do" list which includes some silly and some serious stuff like getting the permits so we can get our pet monkey, watching a few specific Elvira movies, playing Brain Age for a certain amount of time each day, watching Montel Williams, and getting a few appliances replaced under our homeowners' policy. Ugh, and the chores, in addition to a certain amount of walking on the treadmill each day. I told you it was not all fun on the list.

Off to finish the post I began before this one...or I may never achieve its completion.

Arrivederci!

Ghost Orchid - are they not simply lovely?

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2008-03-05 4:15 AM da these hamsters! Previous Entry :: Next Entry Mood: exhausted, but not fit for sleep** Read/Post Comments (2)	I did manage two hours of sleep thus far. Doctors' appointments are swirling in my mind, along with a plethora of other thoughts. Today, I have back to back doctors' appointments beginning at 8:30am, which then go back to back about every hour until 3:30pm. It is going to be a long day; and there is nothing that can be done about it. It just has to be. Then, R gets to work the next five straight nights, including tonight - after being with me (required) at all the doctors' appointments. Oh yes, this week is certainly not for the faint hearted. I have yet more doctors' appointments on Friday, to boot. And chores. And errands. And one lunch with a colleague from work. At least there is something fun and light planned in there. But the da** hamsters. Just cannot manage to get them to stop running in their wheels and let my mind be at ease, even for a night of sleep. As public as I am trying to be with alot of things, some things I am still uncomfortable discussing here in public - and perhaps uncomfortable still discussing in private. Geesh. I would blame the indecision and insanity on the brain tumor, but that is lame. I am not one for indecision, however, and it makes me very unhappy to have it draped over me like a wet rug. In any case, a private entry follows - and it is not done for mystery or to taunt anyone; it just feels a little better that some issues remain closer to home. Just shoot an email if you want the sign-in info so I know who is reading the more intimate stuff. The bigger things include paying bills while I am out for recovery from work, best and worst case scenarios following the surgery, whether my expectations are truly realistic, whether R can afford to keep the house we bought in the worst case scenario, what to emotionally expect when I wake up...you know, just lots of stuff floating about and giving the hamsters adrenaline to keep on running. To keep ourselves more on the brighter side of things, we have "To-Do" plans for following recovery: short and long trips we plan to make together, things we plan to accomplish together, and what we want to be able to provide for one another in the coming years of a LONG marriage. Scout, yes, Seattle is on the list, as is St. Louis and its arch, Netta! The honeymoon we did not take because we bought the house is there too. They seem so silly to us, actually, in light of the re-evaluation of what is important following this mess, but all the doctors agree that it is an important list to have and to aim for, so we are listening. I also have a short-term recovery "To-Do" list which includes some silly and some serious stuff like getting the permits so we can get our pet monkey, watching a few specific Elvira movies, playing Brain Age for a certain amount of time each day, watching Montel Williams, and getting a few appliances replaced under our homeowners' policy. Ugh, and the chores, in addition to a certain amount of walking on the treadmill each day. I told you it was not all fun on the list. Off to finish the post I began before this one...or I may never achieve its completion. Arrivederci! Ghost Orchid - are they not simply lovely? Read/Post Comments (2) Previous Entry :: Next Entry Back to Top
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