It was great to have an entire weekend off of work...if not surreal. Friday night I spent at Jesse and Jessica's house. Jessica made her famous pizza rolls, and I tried to help. I ran to Blockbuster to rent some cheesy horror movies and grab some wine. The best part of that night was the fact that Jessica and I got in a food fight, flinging some sort of flour/water mixture at eachother. Apparently I had a big chunk of it in the front of my hair when I went to the movie store and didn't realize it until I got home. Yeah, it looked like I was trying to imitate a scene from There's Somthing About Mary. It was pretty sick (and a little embarassing).

Saturday was Jen's wedding. I was dreading going without a date as I've never been to a wedding alone before. Well, that was the least of my worries. I spent the entire evening with my boss, Cindy, who apparently has the alcohol tolerance of an 18-year-old on prom night (two sips...she was drunk). She was pretty loud and sort of embarassing. She flirted with the waitstaff, compared the mushrooms in the dishes to certain parts of male anatomy, discussed her husband's sexual prowess, and tried to give my phone number to every man that spoke to me. Normally I would not have a problem with any of the above, but she's my BOSS for pete's sake. When she started getting her groove on to Eminem, I knew I had to get the heck out of there.

As for the rest of the wedding, it was beautiful. I've very happy for the two of them, which is a HUGE step for me as I'm usually tempted to be just a little bitter, wondering what catastrophe will happen to ruin their happiness. There were a plethura of adorable men there, but I had to keep an eye on my boss the whole time and really couldn't meet too many people. I ended up leaving on the early side and went to the bar with Stacy and her boyfriend, Dan (must I always be surrounded by couples?). That was another huge mistake...but I don't even want to get into it.

Yesterday Sam's family had a birthday party in the park for Sammy's 6th birthday. It was great to spend so much time with Sammy and Brittany. I miss them every day, but sometimes I don't realize how much I've missed them until I see them. Every time I hug them I wish I didn't have to let go. I got Sammy some great Jeff Gordon and Tony Hawk toys, and I took as many pictures as I could. I don't understand why Tina seems to want to cut Sam's family and friends out of her son's life, but I'm so afraid I'm going to see less and less of him as he grows up. I changed his diapers and held him when he woke from nightmares. He used to sleep between Sam and I during thunderstorms. I don't want him to remember me as some stranger who showed up on birthdays and holidays with a big bag of presents. I just want him to know how much I love him...how much I loved his Dad. I want him to remember the water fights we had in the kitchen and the Play-Doh we'd play mold for hours...

Anyway, darts tonight and back to reality tomorrow night. Hell's Kitchen has a new GM, and I have a very bad feeling...I think he'll be a total jerk. I need to call the maid of honor from the wedding I went to Saturday. If she can get me a job at her Investment firm then I'll snap it up in a heartbeat. I can't work two crap jobs like this anymore.