After spending over 20 hours in the hospital waiting for her arrival, little Mya Lee was born at 9:45 am. yesterday morning. The teeny little girl weighed in at six pounds, ten ounces. She's adorable, and trust me, I know that most newborns are hideous looking little aliens, but this one's cute, I swear...

I was in the delivery room with Jessica and Jesse when their daughter was born. I have to admit that it really was amazing. I don't usually buy the whole "all babies are miracles" bullshit. I didn't expect to cry when Jessica held her daughter for the first time, or when Jesse wouldn't leave his daughter's side, stood by her when they weighed, measured, and watched, counting her fingers and toes and strangely quiet when he held her and wouldn't let her go. But I did.

The delivery wasn't too horrible either. Jessica was waiting for me to be sick (seeing how I can't even watch Fear Factor without my famous gag reflex popping up, causing me to run to the bathroom, eyes streaming), but I was fine. Jesse, on the other hand, sort of freaked. Looks like Jessica had two babies on her hands yesterday. He had to stand back, closer to her head, which I had to help with the leg-holdage. Only one part made me a little green, but I managed to keep it together. The baby really is adorable, though. I got to hold her for a few minutes before going home to pass out.

So, in less than one year I've seen one life end and another begin. I couldn't see the one without thinking of the other. Sam should've been there yesterday, smoking cigars with Jesse outside and kissing Jessica on the forehead. Since he's been gone our closest friends have married and had babies. It's amazing how quickly these things happen. I wonder what he'd say about all of these things if he were here.

So I'm now an honorary aunt. I guess that's sort of cool.

I'll be dragging my sleep-deprived ass to work tonight and tomorrow night. I want desperately to quit the second job already. I'm looking for just one person to say..."just quit already"...just one little enabler...so that I don't feel guilty for quitting. Yeah, I'm a big girl and should make my own decisions, but I'm not so good at doing that.