Is it really a positive outlook that brings joy and happiness? Is it thinking good things and trying to see the "goodness" in people and situations. Sometimes it seems like the more I do proscribe to this sort of thinking the more life seems to run smoothly. But is it my path or is it a consequence of my mental vision. Are things really bad when I believe them to be? Controlling our perception of life is empowering and yet weird. Can we really control things? What I find joyful others find boring or uninteresting..so what does that mean for the course of events. Some days I cannot stop thinking about human beings as ants under a magnifying glass and our little insignificant lives that cause so much stress and chaos. I think about what meaning life has each day but sometimes it is more powerful than others. Every once in awhile I have a powerful insight that is like a vision. I have only had 4 or maybe 5 my entire life but the feeling has stuck with me. I crave those moments of extreme mental clarity that seem to shed overwhelming peace and understanding..and then they are gone and I don't know what to think.
I just keep searching and listening and waiting.