small things are very importatnt. its rare that i agree with anything my principal says. but in this case, i really have to. becuase it is an irrevocable fact that small things are important...some people think that small things are insignificant and negligible. just because they're small... i beg to differ.every million consists of dollars. every dollar is made up of cents... u get the picture. it all adds up to amount to one heck of a large sum.... one straw can break a camel's back. one grain of rice can tip a scale. one second can distinguish gold and silver. and one movement can spoil my day...small things can definitely do big things.
as usual, my day sucked.... the days get suckier. the nights get longer, deeper, darker. i wonder if i can even survive till o levels. i'm panicking cos i noe i dun have the time to play around. at the same time, i'm panicking cos i'm not motivated enough to work towards my goal.
what the hell.
today there was math. and it sucked cos relative velocity is like a whole new area of math that i have never learned before... i dun really care how fast one man is crossing a river upstream or at 060 degrees or whatever. i hope i can learn that well. cos i will need a math a1 in the o levels....
oh yar. played basketball today. and i sucked. like duh. i'm not exactly genetically gifted with everything a basketballer should have. but it was fun. except for one small thing.
then there was lit. i dun even want to say anything. cos it sucked again. i like lit. i used to, i still do and i most probably always will. i just dunno why i'm not scoring... maybe i should study more?... i dunno.... confused. and stressed. cos i need an a1 for this if i'm aiming to make humans the core of my jc life.... stress.
urggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg.
i wanna scream. so loud and so long that i dun have to stop to breathe and remember the day, the pain of the day and the days to come. i wanna run. so fast and so far that i will never have to turn around and realise that i am getting no where.
like i said. small things are important. so how am i to get my life in order when its the small things that are pissing me off and screwing me up...
i have to stop it right?

didnt go training today... cos i was tired.
and seriously, i am very tired. physically. cos of training. cos of lack of sleep. and just the stress of being in sec 4. but more importantly, i'm emotionally drained. its taking every bit of tolerance and patience i have to just get myself through the day.

i thought friends were supposed to make the journey easier? or am i just mistaken?...