thursday.
no wait. lets try that again
thursday!
i'm supposed to be happy. but somehow, its hard to feel joy right now. i guess its the stress. really getting to me now. the fact that the june holidays are almost here and i am definitely not on my way to my ideal l1r5....
today i had a chem test. and really. i screwed it up. i swear. i didnt really study owing to the fact that i conked out once i hit the bed with my notes. that was a bad decision. i must remember not to study on my bed.
anyway. the paper was a true disaster. everything was seriously wrong and i made so many mistakes. and the worse thing is, i kinda knew it was coming. i think i'm gonna fail. and when that happens, i noe its gonna be extremely shitty. i'll be back in suicidal mode and looking for sharp objects again.... i just have a feeling. and this is the honest truth. really. i wish i didnt have to say this.... but its all true. i'm gonna fail chem. like great. really feel like shit now.
tuition sucked too. cos we did relative velocity again. and that topic is hell...... and its just not thoroughly enjoyable that the boy in the same slot is an absolute math genius. plus i had to eat cheesecake! there goes my diet.
in conclusion. today sucked.
and tmr is not looking good either. what if training and all..
i wish me luck.