urg. its august already. and no i do not feel ready for prelims or o levels or anything else that happens in school

if u think school is about lessons, how wrong you are. the trials and tribulations that school can offer come most of the time from things outside what the teacher is trying to stuff into your brains. most of the time, the most complicated problems are not the ones printed in black and white in the math textbook. those are easy. they even come with answers at the back of the book. and your teachers are always nearby to tell you what to do anyway.

today was a bad day. i cried during chem test. cos i coulden freaking remember whatever the qn asked for... haiz. stressed.
plus, there's hist and e math tmr... like great.

it has been a shitty day. but i noe it will only get worse as prelims arrive and we all gear towards o levels....
i'm just tired.
and no one can see it.
cos everyone assumes that since i'm a nerd, i'm used to this shit and maybe i even derive pleasure from it. well here's the shocking truth.
i don't. i'm made of flesh and blood. just like everyone else. i don't enjoy trying to cram textbook after textbook into my head and yes i get bloody tired after i try for a while.

i'm just sick. and tired.
and everytime i tell somebody this, they give me the "don't bluff la" shit.
whatever ok.

i really don't give a shitty damn anymore.

some people dream of being rich. some people dream about being beautiful. some people dream of travelling around the world or being eternally youthful.
well, i just want to sleep. its that simple. and yet. there are people getting rich, getting plastic surgery, going on diets and zooming around the globe.

but no sleep for me.