Such Sweet Nothing

this weekend has been a blast from the past. and i don't mean that in a good way.
i've been drowning myself in 20th century history because i have a test on all of it tmr. 9 chapters of facts, dates and events. urg. i'm afraid to poke my head in fear that my brimming-with-facts brain will explode and eveything i stuffed inside will just be spat out again. urg. had to work my way through the treaty of versailles all the way to the collapse of communism..... such a long long way.... i would have finished all that in one day.
the problem is, yesterday was not a good day for me to study.
u see. the time has come. i know that i'm standing at the crossroads of my life. and i know that it may be now that my fate is sealed.
ok. not to put it so seriously. but i really need to decide what i need to be in the future. unlike every normal kid, i do not have an ambition. i just know i have the o levels and i have to do well. which if u think about it is a truly pathetic form of exsistence. to suvive on the goal of taking an exam. right. i am so proud of myself sometimes.

and. the english o levels oral is over. and i sucked at it. as in really. i just... i dunno what went wrong ok... i dun wanna talk abt it. anyway. i cannot change anything now. i can only work damn hard for my other 80% in compo and compre. i pray so hard that i dun screw my english marks. cos goodness knows my higher chinese is not gonna give me an a1. i barely even noe if i will pass given the standard and format... haiz.

the week's about to start again. and this week will truly put the last nail in my coffin. i mean. 3 mock exams...
i think it is safe to say that the word mock here is used to imply that the paper serves only to scorn students who unfortunately have to stay up all night slogging their guts out.

please please please let me survive these 5 days.
let me have strength in my moments of weakness.
let me have patience in my very long moments of frustration
let me have the wisdom to see things in the appropriate light
let me have the sensibility to step back and breathe before i want to kill myself
let me have the courage to hold on when i want to let go
let me have that insanity to hold hope in moments of hopelessness




	Such Sweet Nothing Words, whispers and sighs Shrieks, sometimes Home Get Email Updates Admin Password Remember Me 247326 Curiosities served Share on Facebook				2006-08-13 9:09 PM the rest, as they say, is history Previous Entry :: Next Entry Mood: tired. stressed. Read/Post Comments (0) this weekend has been a blast from the past. and i don't mean that in a good way. i've been drowning myself in 20th century history because i have a test on all of it tmr. 9 chapters of facts, dates and events. urg. i'm afraid to poke my head in fear that my brimming-with-facts brain will explode and eveything i stuffed inside will just be spat out again. urg. had to work my way through the treaty of versailles all the way to the collapse of communism..... such a long long way.... i would have finished all that in one day. the problem is, yesterday was not a good day for me to study. u see. the time has come. i know that i'm standing at the crossroads of my life. and i know that it may be now that my fate is sealed. ok. not to put it so seriously. but i really need to decide what i need to be in the future. unlike every normal kid, i do not have an ambition. i just know i have the o levels and i have to do well. which if u think about it is a truly pathetic form of exsistence. to suvive on the goal of taking an exam. right. i am so proud of myself sometimes. and. the english o levels oral is over. and i sucked at it. as in really. i just... i dunno what went wrong ok... i dun wanna talk abt it. anyway. i cannot change anything now. i can only work damn hard for my other 80% in compo and compre. i pray so hard that i dun screw my english marks. cos goodness knows my higher chinese is not gonna give me an a1. i barely even noe if i will pass given the standard and format... haiz. the week's about to start again. and this week will truly put the last nail in my coffin. i mean. 3 mock exams... i think it is safe to say that the word mock here is used to imply that the paper serves only to scorn students who unfortunately have to stay up all night slogging their guts out. please please please let me survive these 5 days. let me have strength in my moments of weakness. let me have patience in my very long moments of frustration let me have the wisdom to see things in the appropriate light let me have the sensibility to step back and breathe before i want to kill myself let me have the courage to hold on when i want to let go let me have that insanity to hold hope in moments of hopelessness Read/Post Comments (0) Previous Entry :: Next Entry Back to Top