i'm stressed. but no one believes me.
i screwed my prelims. but no one believes me.
so i don't bother to say these things out loud anymore.
my life sucks right now due to a number of factors:

1) as aforementioned, i am screwing prelims. big time. i can only hope that i got a single digit L1R5. seriously. i dunno why i didnt prepare. i guess i was sort of like indifferent until during the papers. then i sort of realised i was in shit.

2) things at home suck. my dad is flying off into unpredicatble tempers. my bro is doing a good job with keep my dad's blood pressure sky high. mum aint doing so good with so much stress too. plus there's housework to contend with. so trust me when i say home isnt all cosy and nice right now.

3) i'm tired. i think i'm suffering from burnout. i dun feel like studying anymore.

the race to be ordinary. i just realised. all of us all over the world are struggling to revise and learn... for one certificate. that states that we're ordinary.
its funny how we're all willing to do all this shit for a piece of crap isnt it...

anyway. i hope i pull through in the end anyway.
i noe i screwed prelims. so i'm really gonna push myself for the real thing.
this whole failure is totally helping me get over the motivationless state.

the race is not always to the swift but to those who keep running.

so i'm just gonna keep running.