its the last lap.
its like when coach asks u to run 300m. nobody gets tired on the first step. no one struggles to breathe in the first hundred. your legs still feel pretty ok in the second hundred.
it only hits you at 250m.
the last lap. when you feel like you cannot go on anymore; when the thoughts of giving up repeat themselves in your mind.

thats how i feel now.
just have a reckless desire to throw it all away, leave it to chance, luck, fate whatever. just walk in without studying. i don't really care.

chem studying is not going well.

in fact, its coming along quite horrendously. i think all the chem stuffies just spilled out somewhere in between my papers. crap..................

so. o levels are ending. and the truth is, i can hardly wait. i really need this to be over.

5 reasons why o levels need to be over
1) i need to live! go shopping, laughing, sleep, pig out. i dunno. just do normal stuff. all those things seem so far away.
2) reclaim my room. my room has been invaded by notes. i have mountain worksheet on my left and river textbooks on my right. cant walk without stepping on paper.
3) prom acessories! haven bought. better buy soon. also, there's also the not so small issue of my shoes.
4) need to get away. i need to escape. there's really nothing wrong with my classmates... its just. i need to get away. need to breathe again.
5) if it isnt over soon, i swear to God i'm gonna die.