HMMMMM. what's new.
Deadlines are choking me up. KI IS is especially worrying. I made a very drastic leap from my science-religion tension to social epistemology in the construction of scientific knowldege. I just wasn't making headway... despite my liking for the topic. Problem being, my entire store of holiday reading knowldege has newly become irrelevent, I am fucking behind time and scrambling for some kind of intelligent structure to my essay.

So. Now's actually the beginning of a 6 hour work binge... because I have History H3 proposal to write as well. I'd hate to turn up with unsubstantial crap.

What else.

I bought my new year clothes. well at least some of it. Gah I still need shoes. Nice shoes.

Sigh. I fear I am becoming a girl. There are flowers (roses really) on my top.

Oh, I heard honesty feels good. And they say its pretty easy too. Its the next item on my "Do before I die list".

It's basically been a bad day because:
1) More freaking reminders of how fucking pathetic I am. I'm really quite honest with myself and I know what I am. Its just unpleasant when it keeps getting stuffed into my face... just leave me alone already.
2) I am very sick and tired of life in general. College life. I. signed up for hell.
I'll be damned if I don't survive this.
3) People

Ok. My private store of pain and torture calls "Dive right in".

(Later in the night: Haha. I had to edit. Because I have spent hours reading about Life and Trust and the Role Of Trust in Knowledge Construction from philosophy websites. It was interesting.)