Reminders of deadlines and the future:
- UCAS
- IS
- H3
- Prelims
Pull through. I can do this.

Reminders of the life I used to have:
- old photographs and long conversations
- I saw your face in the crowd today. (We used to be. But I suppose people change. I know I have.)
- Stnicks track and field: double silver. I am proud of you. Really. From the bottom of my black black heart.I heard you guys rocked it. And I know how much that takes.
Perhaps distance makes the heart fonder. But also... the fact that I didn't find anything worth pouring my heart into after that.

Reminders of my own mortality:
- I am troubled. You're my age! and we literally shared the same cot... It's shocking and worrying and... it makes me sad.
You won't ever see this. And I doubt you'd appreciate this but, hey...
I will walk with you. Because this is what you do for people you grow up with.

It is something like this that makes me feel blessed.

Reminders that I... need to work harder:
- History: I am only fucking pissed with a 4th B in history... I really am. Frustrated with my lack of commitment, my lack of time to commit... grah.
"Mug, bitch, mug"- I know.
- Literature: Sighs. Need to learn to score during exams.. and no matter what they say, that's all that matters right?
- KI is half back. What can I say. I am a complete fool on paper for marks. I am somewhat ashamed of the person I have become... I could blame the system. But something tells me... that just like everything else... it's really my own decision that compromises who I am.

Well then... goodnight. Work awaits.