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2008-11-10 8:02 PM Wisdom begins at the end: remember it Previous Entry :: Next Entry Mood: fucked ... I can't explain the depth of my self-hate.
Right this very moment. I screwed Great Expectations. Worse than you can imagine. Blabbering bullshit for 4 pages. I hate it that I could do Malfi. I could because I studied, I was prepared... And I didn't do the same for Great Ex. I just didn't. I had the time. I just did't. If I get a B... It's because I chose to. I just. Hate all this crap. I really want this to be over. Just over. I don't care anymore. I really really don't. 6 papers so far. And frankly, I'm only confident in 1. I hate how this has gone, I hate how I've handled it, I hate how everything is my fault, it was coming for a while, I could see it but I just didn't stop it. I know I'm not even making much sense. But I have to just let it out. It's been bubbling under for 6 papers. I hate disappointment. I hate self-disappointment. I just... wish it was over so I can get my sorry ass to nus and just... yea. I hate myself. I feel like I'm 15 again. And it sucks. No you know what. I'm not even doing a good job explaining this. Previous Entry :: Next Entry Back to Top |
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