That is how I am in the classroom: Crash and Burn.

URGH. It's so.... bad. I can't find a more appropriate word.

To do List:
- Media slides
- More Media slides
- Record file: reflections, lesson plans, timetable, record of meetings

I've become one of those working people who live for lunchbreaks and weekends. I miss being a student so damn much. But oh no, don't give me the "I told you so". I always loved being a student.

I mean, it was just national exams that brought me down. Other than that, I was perfectly fine being the antisocial who ate her lecture notes. I loved it. Every single muggig minute.

6 March. It weighs a bit more heavily on me now that its actually drawing closer. I am at the stage called "Resignation". I passed "Anger" in November; "Regret" in December, "Denial" in January... February is perfect for the crash. Sighs.

... I think the more I say it the more I want it. Joint degree History and Philosophy at NUS and ANU. You'd tell me I was wasting myself. (Well no, I don't think so. I think I'll get as much out of it as I want to.)
You'd tell me it's a useless degree (It's not. It really isn't.)
And you're tell me why the hell 2 when I can get away with 1. (Because I'm just that kind of student. I like studying.)

But I tend to follow my heart in big decisions. And the arts, I regret to admit, is where I will truly be happy having a degree in.

So, thank you. For all your well intentioned advice. But I have to go my own way. In this, at least.

Deep breath
"I can do this"
Just like you taught me to.