Just back from a two hour meeting (omg Xiang. How do you live.)

French oral tomrrow. I am realistically pessimistic. Haha. Never seems to matter if I try or not.

Graduation is playing on the radio.

"So if we get the big jobs and we make the big money and we look back will that joke still be funny."

I keep asking myself if these are the people I will remember and connect with... my undergraduate experience. I don't know.

I've been counselled many times on this leap of faith phobia I have. ITS NOT A PHOBIA ITS RATIONAL AS HELL. A leap of faith asks you to trust in what you cannot know. How does that make you feel safe? How?

"Will the past be a shadow that will follow us round?"

There is always a desire to fall back on the familiar. It's only and always human.

Okay. Revise and sleep.