So, I handed in 4 essays this semester. So far 2 A minuses and 1 A. =\ Sighs.

The key to happiness is low expectations. Or at least, lower expectations than mine.

I am disappointed in myself even when my teachers write well done. I decided a long time ago that I don't like Bs and I don't like minuses. (I've never even allowed myself to contemplate Cs- but methinks French this semester will definitely be in that region). And I know it's high time to revise this... dislike... given that I'm in university. But I am really my best proof that human beings are irrational. (That, and optimists).

My point is: I am disappointed, because I am always aiming for A.

Some people would say its the 6 modules thing. I wish I believed it more. I can't help thinking it's just my own inadequacy.

I fear the last essay will be a B=\ In which case. I would really feel like shit.

(Edit/ an hour later)
"Incidentally, love is an interesting instance of another relationship that is historical, in that (like justice) it depends on what actually occurred. An adult may come to love another because of the other's characteristics; but it is the other person, and not the characteristics, that is loved. The love is not transferable to someone else with the same characteristics, even to one who "scores" highers for these characteristics. And the love endures through changs of the characteristics that gave rise to it. One loves the particular person one actually encountered. Why love is historical, attaching to persons in this way and not to characteristics, is an interesting and puzzling question."

Robert Nozick. Anarchy, State, and Utopia.

Three things:
1) It reminds me of Sheldon Cooper! (especially the last line)

2) It is for things like these that I make the CAP- endangering decision to continue with philosophy.

3) This is, after all, why I <3 mugging. Because I Learn Things. I can't believe this is part of preparing for exams! (nerd yayy)