This life:
1) Two recommendation letters for application to Science Po (basically) settled. Greatly relieved. Really. =\ I guess I should have been more prepared but I really didn't know we would need to have these before I applied. I didn't even know we had to apply to the partner university.

I was nervous about them because even though my grades are fine and I say good things in class, I really don't go out of my way to make a terribly good impression on the teacher. I mean, kiss ass. I don't. So, I was a little afraid about being remembered or having made an impression at all.

2) Christmas shopping! About half done. So stressful for me. I feel incredibly guilty when I buy a present that the other person doesn't like or simply doesn't know what to do with.

So, these few days, basically been walking till my legs hurt. But it's nice to wander. I tend to dress up when I'm not meeting anybody. When the day's plan is basically walk until I see something suitable and buy. I smile- salespeople, kids, cashiers... The lingering vestige of playing pretend.

3) Last week: peppermint mocha, Starbucks, fiction. Today: arts canteen, hot tea, fiction. I like to be alone and reading with hot beverages. It's something I can't afford duing the semester.

4) Food tastingggggg. Kills the day entirely but oh well. A little socially awkward but could be worse.

I had almost put the 21st out of my mind you know. Sighs. I hate it that I already know I have to apply for S/U. Doesn't feel good. But BIGGER PICTURE I keep telling myself.