Sunday evening- A time of sighs. Twilight of another weekend; I'm moving from two busy days to another five. The only thing different is what I am busy with.

School: I yearn so much again to be a student and to have classes and assignments and readings. It really is my happy place. Module preference exercise on Monday. I have not set my heart on everything yet. But less time will mean less agonising.

Internship: Drawing to a close soon. I am reflective and a bit sad. Have I learnt much? Maybe not so much about the public service as myself. Not a pretty picture.

Boyfriend: Bryan says I'm on hiatus. He's right. Barely seen him through summer and it's sad. Was planning a mega long date after internship ends. But I just found out I don't even have one full day... It's very pathetic. I wish I could say I'm ultimately okay with putting in this time and effort because it's all going to turn out awesome. But as reflected in last post, I really don't feel like I'm contributing much or at all.

Things I wanted to do but probably can't get done by the time summer ends:
1) Bake: I owe Bryan an apple pie. And cupcakes.
2) Read fiction.
3) Revise French.
4) Shop.
5) Sleep 8 hours a day.

I'm starting to feel like I'm not cut out for this. I feel it in the public service too. This servant-leadership thing. I'm too... discontented with the sacrifice it entails. It sounds terrible but I think its true.

Also. I would like to respond to "Life is a popularity game. People buy people first.": Well, I'm well and truly fucked then.