It's the last day of the year. I feel like I should be reflective, contemplative. I haven't really had the time though I usually am in December. It's just been such a mad rush after the exams, the getting ready for France part I mean.

My life scattered around my room.

Open and bursting suitcase: I JUST remembered that I haven't packed sleep/ home wear. How very brainless... There's so much to do, so much to get ready. It's the end/ middle of a very long process. You'll never learn it without living it.

An unwrapped present: a new blossoming friendship. Hello fellow nutcase extraordinaire.

My new baby: Canon G12. It's so nice and magically makes things pretty. I will record this entire experience. This morning I took the sunrise outside my window. I know I will begin feeling homesick the moment I board the plane. I don't think it, I know it. It's just who I am.

Disney stuff: From the trip to Hong Kong with the siblings. Second holiday in December. Stressful, but it was a good experience having to be in charge I guess.

AY2011/2012 Sem 1: The most disastrous results in my undergraduate career so far. My only consolation is that I have not lost first class (yet). Hence, it is really a result that I can live with no matter how much it kills me inside. If this is as far as I can fall given the lack of focus on my academics this sem, I should be both happy and thankful. Perhaps more importantly, the modules this semester really shifted my thinking and expectations for level 3000 and 4000. It's something I really treasure. In every module I learned something and learned something about myself as a history major. I will take the next semester to find my centre to come back. Half-way to comeback kid status- I've never had a chance thus far. I don't wanna mess it up because coming this far was hard.

The year I got a life: I stand by my earlier judgement that in my assessment, the price was too high for the experience. But I don't regret doing it.

My big teddy bear: I will miss Bryan enormously =\ sadface. It's true, I sometimes yearn to be single and miss the possibilities and freedom. But what I admit much less is that I also like being in a stable relationship, with a boy who really cares about me and accepts my insanity with only rare protests in extreme cases.

What's in 2012?
- Paris and Europe and living alone in a place where I can't speak the language
- Holiday semester!
- Year 4 and Honours Thesis: It's time to get down and do what I came to university to do. Or die trying.
- So close to graduation that I can smell it: time to grow up and think about what to do after I wear that gown and hat.