About 7 years ago, you told me I was being elitist/ selfish by opting to get a degree, instead of a diploma, which would cost you a lot more. You told me I didn't need a degree to get a job and I only wanted it for vanity etc. I disagreed.

We were both right. I stand by what I said, I do need a degree in my society; but you were right too, on some level, I just wanted it cause I love the work involved.

And now you are ever so happy I'm graduating. (You were so upset/ angry when my sister applied to and was rejected by universities. You considered sending her overseas to get a degree. And now you're happy she's an undergraduate- and you're trying to convince my brother in polytechnic to make it to a university when he has absolutely no damn intention.) And you insisted you wanted this all along. (I wanted to scream, I wanted to scream- NO YOU DIDN'T. YOU TRIED TO STOP ME. I FELT SO TERRIBLE CHOOSING TO GO TO JUNIOR COLLEGE.)

Several weeks ago, I told you I wanted to apply for a second degree, in law. You didn't protest. You simply calculated the cost and kept repeating it to me in a shocked voice. And then you said okay, why not.

And now we're back to shocked. And the deadline is now.

I am never having kids because I don't want to do to them what has been and is being done to me. I don't want to fuck up their lives. I truly believe you never intended to or want to fuck up my life; but you're doing it anyway. It's called the generation gap or whatever. I never want to do this to someone else. It stops now.