So, I'm out of school.

- I dare not post a reflection on my four years in NUS- because I'm (morbidly) afraid that I might have failed my last module and have to retake. It'll be hugely embarrassing. What can I do but wait till 4 June. I really am very nostalgic/ sad/ reflective. But this shall all have to wait.

I would pray if I had anything close to time to breathe easy in my new post-school life.

- OL life: I'm very stressed currently. New situations/ changes generally stress me out. I take a long time to adapt. Everything is new, complicated and new. People are friendly. But people being too-friendly stresses me out. I have a hard time explaining this to other people; they sort of think I'm being ungrateful for people being nice/ reaching out to me. But I'm not, I'm really not. It really helps to have friendly people who ease me into this civil service thing. It's all a bit of a shock...

On day one, they sort of simply took it for granted that I would lunch with them and we just carried on. It's nice. But it's also awkward. And I also feel a little bit like I'm "working" during lunch hour too? And also, I'm beginning to feel like they might not understand me-- there are these... unstated assumptions about impending marriage and childbirth- as normal. And a million other things. Maybe we're all just at different stages in our lives, I optimistically think.

Binge eating comfort food at my cubicle- because I need to feel just a slightly bit better when the buttery taste explodes in my mouth.

To sum up, I'm very nervous about graduation and post-graduation life is very overwhelming currently. I'm hoping these things will resolve themselves in time.