*I'm full and empty. Here and there. This and that. Good and bad. Right and left. Dark and light. I suppose only I can know the truth, but you can know the rest.

*The things that make me feel better really shouldn't.

*Where do you go when dreams are vivid and life is a blur? I used to wake up in a cold sweat, and now that's how I spend my days. I need a pinch.

*I'm ready to glow for a while.


Keeping me on my toes:
*hamster decathlons.
*playing nurse after surgery.
*the happy humanist.
*synthesized dumplings.
*building up and checking out.
*humming this:

You'll never see the courage I know
Its colors richness wont appear within your view
Ill never glow - the way that you glow
Your presence dominates the judgments made on you

But as the scenery grows, I see in different lights
The shades and shadows undulate in my perception
My feelings swell and stretch; I see from greater heights
I understand what I am still too proud to mention - to you

You'll say you understand, but you don't understand
You'll say you'd never give up seeing eye to eye
But never is a promise, and you cant afford to lie

You'll never touch - these things that I hold
The skin of my emotions lies beneath my own
You'll never feel the heat of this soul
My fever burns me deeper than Ive ever shown - to you

You'll say, don't fear your dreams, its easier than it seems
You'll say you'd never let me fall from hopes so high
But never is a promise and you cant afford to lie

You'll never live the life that I live
Ill never live the life that wakes me in the night
You'll never hear the message I give
You'll say it looks as though I might give up this fight

But as the scenery grows, I see in different lights
The shades and shadows undulate in my perception
My feelings swell and stretch, I see from greater heights
I realize what I am now too smart to mention - to you

You'll say you understand, you'll never understand
Ill say Ill never wake up knowing how or why
I don't know what to believe in, you don't know who I am
You'll say I need appeasing when I start to cry
But never is a promise and Ill never need a lie.