Word of the week is…. Transition. To change, evolve, shift and grow right? Wrong. Turns out the world transition is code for confusion, questioning and losing your resolve. Lastly having your world shaken – not just stirred gently. Ok alright I’m being dramatic, but I just adore hyperbole and it’s so much fun for me to break my usual stoic character and be a drama queen and drama goes great with my outfit today. As it turns out, it isn’t just me wondering why transition hurts so much, it’s a lot of you that were left a bit reeling by last weeks events. This word “transition” is so obscure I couldn’t even find a decent quote to start my rant with this week. What is the big deal with transition? Why the secrets? Also this week, is the first day of spring. Finally! I wish there were this magical “transition” (see folks I used it in a sentence!) where winter was gone and summer flowers were blooming. Maybe if transition wasn’t so full of chaos, mayhem and just a general pain in my ass I wouldn’t be so fussy about it. Whew that felt good, I haven't really gotten on my soapbox for a while, I've missed it!

Last week was a powerful week in the change department; this week carries over as well, however with a heavier aspect of Saturn adding its flavor to the mix. Tomorrow is the Vernal Equinox, where we have equal parts of light and dark which implies balance. I wish this was true for all things, and I had that level of balance inside of me, alas I do not. Is it my red hair that makes me lopsided, or is it just because I’m a woman and I live in a perpetual state of change? I suppose I will just have to maintain faith that all the events that have been occurring will somehow have me landing on my feet and knowing exactly what to do and how to do it. A very dear friend of mine said that it takes a lot of tension for a seed head to break through the soil, he’s right, so maybe I’m just staggering from all that tension?

Either way, even though it’s very difficult to have a perfect balance in your life it does not mean we have to let the day go by tomorrow without taking note of all the dormant seeds within us that could be growing, things in our life we want, wish for, and if we are brave enough to believe we can achieve – may someday be claimed as ours. So maybe I won’t be completely balanced by tomorrow, maybe I will remain, and may always be a bit off the wall, off kilter and a bit crazy, but at least I have a better idea of what I really want after a full week of tension and questions.

If nothing else, I gained some ideas from the last week of tension, some things are very apparent that I know I want now that maybe I did not really see before. Those of you who helped me with finding those ideas, thank you; you know who you are, I hope your reading this. At least I got to act dramatic and use the word transition in a sentence without a curse following it.