I have just been in a nasty, cranky mood lately.

At some points, it feels remarkably like PMS. And at others, it feels as though old symptoms are rearing their ugly head from the days of debilitating panic attacks and OCD obsessions.

Really, both suck ass. And make me an unpleasant companion.

I don't know if it's linked to the birth control hormones or the time of year or the fact that I'm back at work. But it's getting in my way.

And I'm debating if I need to seek counseling again but I'm really, really, really sick of that. It's never done all that much to help in the past so why would it do anything now? And as the last time I was medicated, the dr jacked my prescription up so much that I was having psychotic episodes. Not something I'm willing to risk now that D- is around. Nor are meds something I'm even willing to try at all.

I dunno...just not a happy camper lately...