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2011-05-08 10:53 AM
Blah-g #238 Life At Home Sucks

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I’m sure a lot of you know how much I dislike my home life. Most who haven’t read any of my blogs yet wouldn’t see why. But it’s ok. I’m sure that some of you who do know don’t really care. That’s ok too. I know that I’m not the only one who has a bad home life, but what really can you do?
I hate having to be so stressed out all the time. Worrying about if my sister is gonna do anything to the kids because she’s PMSing or just in a bad mood. Wondering if my brother is gonna scream and yell at the boys because he doesn’t want to pick up their Legos. If both my brother and sister are going to make my mom cry because they are selfish good for nothing brats that beg for money and things.
I also hate being called fat, fatso, tubby, and wide load. I hate being badgered about eating food that don’t belong to me. I hate having my brother and sister rub in how big I am. I know I am. But they don’t need to rub it in my face. I’ve even been trying to lose some of the weight but its hard. Especially when everyone complains that we eat like pigs eating only junk food yet that’s all we buy. I try to exercise but all I hear is how nasty, sweaty and smelly I am when I’m done.
School isn’t much of an improvement either as far as stress levels and the like. All I’ve been doing this semester is stressing myself to sickness. I’ve been burning myself out mentally and physically to get all the work done on time and turned in on time.
I’ve barely had any real time to have fun. There have been a few times when Steph was able to kidnap me from my homework and house life. But that only helped for so long. It really sucks living in conditions like this.
But on the bright side I’ll be done with the semester in about two more weeks. I’m so far passing my classes. Not too sure about the math class but I’m pretty sure that I’m doing at least passing.
I’m most likely going to have a lot of free time when I’m out with Master for the summer, so I’m going to try and start drawing again with the Wacom tablet Master got me a few months ago. Then I’ll be working on making things out of polymer clay and start beading as well. Hopefully I’ll also be able to blog a lot more too. Which I’ll TRY my very hardest to do daily since I’ll have so much time on my hands. Especially if I stay up past Master when he’s got work during the week.
I’m also going to try my hand at writing flash fiction of horror, supernatural , ero, and maybe a bit of fantasy (a la King Arthur/Highlander). Hopefully that will go well too.
Master and I have plans to ghost hunt on weekends so that means I’ll have to look for my battery charger for my new camera. It should be fairly easy to find since I’m pretty sure its still in the box or somewhere near. So that should be a lot of fun. I also have a tape recorder, and I’ll try and get a digital voice recorder as well. I can’t wait for that since it’s a really big thing for me. Being all sensitive to this kinda thing. But the thing is to keep an open mind and look for rational ideas first then once logic is out then I can consider things not natural to this world.
Thursday was the most horrible car ride I’ve ever had. To make a long story short and because I don’t want to go through details, basically I rode to school in a car with unbolted seats. Since the seat kept moving around the seat belt locked, when the car was accelerated the seat belt dug into my neck. When the car turned sharply the seat belt dug into my neck. When the brakes were pressed the seat belt dug into my neck. I was so worried that the seat belt was going to either cut my neck or worse. I didn’t even care if I was late for class.
Saturday was awesome. I went to the U.S.S Midway. I had a really great time except for going up and down ALL THOSE FREAKING STAIRS! That I did not like lol. I took a few pictures of parts of the ship. Didn’t really get as many as I wanted because I was trying to keep up with my mom and the boys. That also was not very fun either. But all in all it was a good time.
Then I came home and ate some bat nuggets with a moose shake that proved to be not a good idea to mix. I went with my friend Steph and went to the mall and just chilled. Then later we left the mall and went to the park for a bit. Then after having a little fun on the swings my bat nuggets and moose shake started to haunt me. It made my tummy hurt which was not fun at all.
Anyways I have just this week and then its finals week and that Saturday I’ll be leaving to Williamsport, Pa. I can’t wait. It’s been about 5 months since I’ve seen Master. Plus it’s a well deserved break for me.

So that’s about it for now. I’ll prolly update either next week and again before I leave. Or I might just leave it til before I leave too. I dunno. It depends on how I feel.

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