This month needs to be stricken from the calendar. From now on, it'll go January March April May etc.

In four days, it'll be the second anniversary since our dog, Lotto, passed away. I mention this because today, my dog Max collapsed and had a seizure. He's 6 years old and this is the first time anything has ever been wrong with him (well, unless you count the unholy bad gas he's had since.. forever).

He's at the vet's right now. He was gaining some mobility back, but his eyes were still doing the rolling, rapid side-to-side movement. They were going to give him a shot of valium and do the requisite blood testing, but that's all they would tell us. They took our number and said they'll be in touch.

I did really good. I didn't start crying until I started typing this. Fuck now I'm so messed up I can't even see.

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Ok, he's home now. *deep breath*

The vet called after supper, saying he was doing fine. The shot of valium they gave him stopped the rapid eye movement and after he slept for a bit, he woke up and was 100% improved. Still slightly stoned and a little weak, but otherwise ok.

Apparently, he has high cholesterol.

I don't know if that's relevant.

Otherwise, the vet couldn't find anything wrong with him that could have brought on the seizure. Her only other thought was that he could have a tumor, but the only way to know that for sure means we'd have to book him in for an MRI down in Edmonton - and maybe we'd get a date for a month or two from now. argh. She says our best bet is to just take him home, and if it happens again, then look into getting him in.

For now, he gets special food because of the cholesterol, and M. gets a week or so of angry looks and eye rolls from me for feeding the dog so many damn dog biscuits all the time.

And now I get excedrin and tea because so much weepiness gives me a headache.

Thanks to all of you that commented and/or emailed - I'm so grateful for your support and kind words. They really did help.