Mood Swings

Routine

It's that time of year again.
Go get the test, pass it, do it again next year.
Wash, rinse, repeat.

Surprised, Scared, Confident

The letter comes.
"The test shows inconsistencies. Schedule another appointment for more detailed views."
I've been down this road before and found the final destination uneventful.

Cocky, Fearful, Grim

Develop sound, calm expectations.
They ignore my expectations and zero in on "the problem."
Wait for the doctor in a room with only 2 chairs, no windows, no pictures, no hope.

Don't Tell Me/Tell Me, Relieved, Thankful

This really can't be happening!
"We'll see you in a year. There is no suspicious change and no radiologic evidence of malignancy."
Breathing is restored; smile muscles are exercised; angels are thanked.