I know, I know, its been a long time since I've been here but there are reasons.

First of all, when I returned home from my nearly two week visit with Miss Netta, I came into a house of destruction. My son and daughter were in the throws of remodeling the kitchen....which needed it terribly. But...you know how that goes...cahos everywhere for nearly two weeks...the struggle to cook anything edible without a stove...no sink to wash dishes, no light switches inworking order...well..you'all know the deal when it comes to remodeling...it always takes longer than originally planned and it most certainly goes over budget.

In spite of everythng, it is now done...completed, finished..(except for the curtains which I will make next week)..and life has returned to near normal.

Also, we have a sick dog...Cash...he's 13 years old and is having a problem with his liver. He's practically stopped eating and is very restless...kinda hard to tell how much pain he's in. He follows me around like a suppository and looks at me with those beautiful eyes and I cry cause I know the end is not far off and it saddens me. I fear every morning that I will awaken and find him dead on my bedroom floor. This may very well be a case where we have to take him to the vet for euthanasia before the pain becomes too much for the poor little guy to handle.

We also had a wedding in the family...JR's step daughter tied the knot a couple of weeks ago...it was a very pretty wedding...the bride was beautiful and the groom very handsome. The service was very nice and the reception was pleasant.

Last weekend My son JR and his wife took me to Churchill Downs for the races. I won on the first and last race. The 3, 5 and 7 races I managed to choose the horse that came in last. Don't think I'm much of a handicapper. But, it was a fun day to get out.

I am excited at the thought of becoming a Great Grandmother, almost as excited as Netta is at being called Gramma. Not that either of us would dream of spoiling the child...hehehheh.

Other than that, I'm trying to dig my way out of this moross depresson that's been trying to work its way into my brain. I find myself sitting in a chair and crying for no reason...I can't look at a sad movie without a box of kleenix on my lap. It's not just now and then, its all the time. And I can't figure out where all these tears are coming from. Cripe...I'm a pretty happy person most of the time and I work like hell at keeping a positive attitude...but alas...the tears keep sneaking in. I think I'm gonna go have a chat with my family doc and see if he thinks there may be a problem with clinical depression...maybe he can come up with a happy pill to clear out the brain cobwebs.

Next week its the visit with the oncologist..and the vascular surgeon..both of which I dread..but I will go..under protest. I mean what the hell...how much more can they do to me that they haven't already done. Right?

So...anyway, that's where I've been...can't promise that I'll be back quickly but I just wanted you to know you are all on my mind and in my prayers..I try to read you each day, even if I don't leave a comment.

Wishing you all well...good health, good friends, good times and good luck. Love y'all.

:)