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alright, it took me longer than i figured but the quilt is done and getting mailed out today. YAY !!! OMG OK YAYAYAYAYAYAY!
*phew*
i will take a picture before i box it up and post it. it's not my style, but i think it came out really nice. well, ya'll can be the judge.
*phew*
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poor donna has a problem... yep, that kid brandon? the one that's been hanging around here lately? tina's first friend here? we both think he has a thing for donna. she doesn't know quite what to make of it. she says she likes him as a friend but that's as far as it's going... she's two years older than he is. not that it's a big deal, but i know how she feels.
i have often ruminated about the subject of men/women friends, and have tried numerous times to get my feelings about it out in an essay format. some people say you CAN have a friendship without the sex/love thing coming into it, but i tend to disagree. maybe your status has a lot to do with it too... but i always have a sneaking suspicion when i talk to a guy he's sizing me up in one way or another... like, can i do her should i do her would i do her??? i don't think there's any way to get past that, whether or not either party decides to act upon it. so then it's an unspoken issue between the two, and that HAS to affect the friendship, don't you think?
i do have male friends, but i have lost male friends in the past because we would get to a certain point in the relationship and then they would start talking this love shit thing or making the moves. i always feel like i have to be on my guard and that's sad. i love having men friends, especially since i grew up without a stable male influence and having two younger brothers. i'm very close with my oldest brother.... the younger one i wanted to smack the hell out of when we were kids and not much has changed since then.
maybe the way i look at male friends is influenced by a lot of things that happened to me when i was young. of course i'm aware of it, and it would explain why i am guarded. i also think many women can only interact with men on a sexual level, because that is the only way they know how. i guess it would stand to reason that some men can only realate to women on a sexual level... and therein lies your basic problem or conflict, when all you want to do is be friends.
sometimes i start babbling here and i have no idea what i'm talking about.
****
well, now that the frantic push to get that quilt done is over, i can take a deep breath and get caught up on the writing thing. i need to get to FWBW, i have neglected them shamefully so that will be my first stop after getting to the post office. i have nine pieces out and no word on any of them yet; it's been a month or more so i need to get on the stick and get some more out there. actually, what i need to do is actually write and put the subbing thing on the back burner for now, before i run out of things to sub.
not feeling the writing bug, but then i've been so caught up in the quilt i think that's where all my energy has gone. it's always balls out or nothing with me, i have to laugh. i guess that's a good thing, in a way... when i do something, it's all i have or it's nothing. i suppose that's not a bad way to be.
: )
*phew*
i will take a picture before i box it up and post it. it's not my style, but i think it came out really nice. well, ya'll can be the judge.
*phew*
****
poor donna has a problem... yep, that kid brandon? the one that's been hanging around here lately? tina's first friend here? we both think he has a thing for donna. she doesn't know quite what to make of it. she says she likes him as a friend but that's as far as it's going... she's two years older than he is. not that it's a big deal, but i know how she feels.
i have often ruminated about the subject of men/women friends, and have tried numerous times to get my feelings about it out in an essay format. some people say you CAN have a friendship without the sex/love thing coming into it, but i tend to disagree. maybe your status has a lot to do with it too... but i always have a sneaking suspicion when i talk to a guy he's sizing me up in one way or another... like, can i do her should i do her would i do her??? i don't think there's any way to get past that, whether or not either party decides to act upon it. so then it's an unspoken issue between the two, and that HAS to affect the friendship, don't you think?
i do have male friends, but i have lost male friends in the past because we would get to a certain point in the relationship and then they would start talking this love shit thing or making the moves. i always feel like i have to be on my guard and that's sad. i love having men friends, especially since i grew up without a stable male influence and having two younger brothers. i'm very close with my oldest brother.... the younger one i wanted to smack the hell out of when we were kids and not much has changed since then.
maybe the way i look at male friends is influenced by a lot of things that happened to me when i was young. of course i'm aware of it, and it would explain why i am guarded. i also think many women can only interact with men on a sexual level, because that is the only way they know how. i guess it would stand to reason that some men can only realate to women on a sexual level... and therein lies your basic problem or conflict, when all you want to do is be friends.
sometimes i start babbling here and i have no idea what i'm talking about.
****
well, now that the frantic push to get that quilt done is over, i can take a deep breath and get caught up on the writing thing. i need to get to FWBW, i have neglected them shamefully so that will be my first stop after getting to the post office. i have nine pieces out and no word on any of them yet; it's been a month or more so i need to get on the stick and get some more out there. actually, what i need to do is actually write and put the subbing thing on the back burner for now, before i run out of things to sub.
not feeling the writing bug, but then i've been so caught up in the quilt i think that's where all my energy has gone. it's always balls out or nothing with me, i have to laugh. i guess that's a good thing, in a way... when i do something, it's all i have or it's nothing. i suppose that's not a bad way to be.
: )
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