you know, i know that i'm a fairly intelligent person. but sometimes i wonder if i'm just intelligent enough to realize i'm not that intelligent. then i wonder if i'm just too hard on myself (again) and think i'm just limited because i'm not pushing myself in that way.

i don't want to feel mundane. i want to know if there are other levels here. i want to push, stretch, leave the comfort zone.

i wonder how much of this is motivated by the fact both my girls are out this evening, and i can see a taste of the future, hoping i am capable or brave enough to contend with and improvise, extemporize, mold and manuever the emerging circumstances and happenings into a future where i have realized all of my potential.

then the reality of today pulls into the driveway and opens the door and i figure i have just had a moment that will pass like a burp from dinner.

: )