the strange planet inside my head
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Mood:
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i'm not sure i have anything to say today, other than change is in the air and i'm hoping for the best.
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i'ts raining today, but yesterday was just unbelievabley gorgeous. i had all the windows open, cleaned house, and made new curtains for my room, the girls room, and the kitchen. i always feel better when i'm "creating" something, but my head was just too clouded for writing. that's why sewing and writing balance each other so well, for me. and i notice i have to be doing something.... i can't just lie around being all lazy like. i probably SHOULD be that way more often, i can be such a slavedriver to myself.
i also think sometimes i put stuff in my way so i can have an excuse not to write. i was wondering why i do that, and i think part of it is the fear of failure. i want to figure out why i have this drive to be good, to be perfect, to be the best. not that it's a bad thing, but it can be so WEARING.
anyway, i feel better the house is in order. the curtains look cute, ive never made any before so i surprised myself. these curtains are open and girly. i like the fact i can have anything anyway i want it in my own place. pretty cool.
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okay , alright, i'll stop procrastinating. no promises, but i'll see what i can choke out today. i know i can be more self-disciplined...and DC sure aint getting written on it's own.
*sigh*
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i'ts raining today, but yesterday was just unbelievabley gorgeous. i had all the windows open, cleaned house, and made new curtains for my room, the girls room, and the kitchen. i always feel better when i'm "creating" something, but my head was just too clouded for writing. that's why sewing and writing balance each other so well, for me. and i notice i have to be doing something.... i can't just lie around being all lazy like. i probably SHOULD be that way more often, i can be such a slavedriver to myself.
i also think sometimes i put stuff in my way so i can have an excuse not to write. i was wondering why i do that, and i think part of it is the fear of failure. i want to figure out why i have this drive to be good, to be perfect, to be the best. not that it's a bad thing, but it can be so WEARING.
anyway, i feel better the house is in order. the curtains look cute, ive never made any before so i surprised myself. these curtains are open and girly. i like the fact i can have anything anyway i want it in my own place. pretty cool.
****
okay , alright, i'll stop procrastinating. no promises, but i'll see what i can choke out today. i know i can be more self-disciplined...and DC sure aint getting written on it's own.
*sigh*
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