hi all!

yes lon, i am still fighting the good fight and i may be making some headway. as soon as i have landed on solid ground, i will be back for good. it was awesome to "see" you also...hopefully it won't be too long before i'm in the loop.

i have reached the arch and am actually feeling happy feelings...they are alien and wonderful. i plan on feeling them for a long time.

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anyway, i am making this entry regarding friendships you may have that even though you think they might last for years, in the back of your mind is a niggling little voice that says "watch out...there's something hinky here."

listen to that voice, friends and neighbors, it usually knows what it's talking about.

stress does weird things to people...and one friend's happiness may also have a detrimental effect on another's. the green monster makes its appearance, and it eats everything it can sink its claws into. sad, but true.

i have tried very hard in the last three years of trials and tribulations not to let that happen. i honestly feel happy when someone i love has something wonderful happen to them...oh yeah, i'm only human and sometimes i would wish an end would come to my vale of tears, but how could i take that away from someone i love who has also suffered? nah.

apparently it doesn't work both ways in this one particular relationship. lesson learned, and the next time that annoying and niggling little voice speaks, i'm going to listen.

no, really...i am.

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isn't that life in a nutshell? something lost, something gained and always a lesson learned.


:) love to ya'll.