people that use hands-free telephones and walk around talking to themselves are extremely irritating. they have this thing hanging out of their ear that looks like a metallic cockroach....ewwwwww......then they burst out with some comment totally unrelated to the world going on around them, and that just makes me question what planet of the twilight zone i'm on today.

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received a nice comment re: "The Echo" that's posted under the guidelines at ChickFlicks e-zine (link above). it felt great, and might just be the kick in the pants i need to stop frickin around and just DO IT, as Nike says. i have been participating (playing, actually, it's FUN!) on a website called "One Word" (if i wasn't technically retarded, i'd post a link right here) where you are given one word and thirty seconds to freewrite. someone dear to me once told me to PLAY! have fun with it! he is absolutely right (as usual) so i'm trying to inject a little play into my chaotic regimen.

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you know, thinking back on it, i really never have played a lot. childhood and young adulthood was all about surviving, and shouldering massive amounts of responsibility. adulthood was just more of the same. maybe i need to exercise my "play" muscles.

any suggestions?

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the knight has returned from his travels...color me happy. :) can ya see me beaming?? GAH. i'm making myself gag, but i don't care. good lawd, i've turned into one of those mushy, goo-goo, ga-ga lovestruck idiots. ack.

i think i'm living in equal parts ecstasy and terror.

high octane stuff, for real.

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the telephoner with the cockroach in his ear just told someone "I love ya, baby." what a wierd echo to what i was just thinking. maybe those damned things have psychic xrays beaming into my skull, suckling at one of my four remaining brains cells.

ratbastid. git yer own.

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you know the ten commandments? well, i was just wondering - do they all have the same sin weight? you know, is it worse to kill someone or worse to lie? is it as bad to commit adultery as it is to covet thy neighbor's wife? what if you covet the neighbor's husband, is it the same thing?

are there exceptions to the rules?

and another thing that confuses me...and i may have blogged about this before...Jesus was the new covenant, right? and the only commandments i remember him making were 1. love thy god and 2. love thy neighbor as thyself.


i like Jesus a lot. not the Jesus painted by organized religion, but the one you can see when you read between the lines. the guy that hung out with the outcast and unwanted. he was so kind and loving, with a wry sense of humor. i can't help but imagine his mother and her trials, and i always had a soft spot for mary magdalene. (my confirmation name is mary - after the girlfriend, not the mother.)

i could just never make the connection between the Jesus i felt and the Jesus portrayed and the narrow mind-set of most christians of my experience. i don't understand how sex became such a sin, or homosexuality, or why it's okay to lie and discriminate against anyone when all Jesus preached was loving others.

i'm guessing i ask too many questions. i'm guessing i just may be a pagan (or is it heathen?) at heart. i'm guessing my picture of Jesus was influenced in a major way by seeing the musical "Jesus Christ Superstar" when i was twelve years old. it was a broadway cast from the city on tour, and i was blown away by the story and the music. i still have the actual vinyl LP's. that was the closest i ever got to religious education, when i was a kid.

i wonder what Jesus would think of that?

:)