did a little better on sleep -- six hours. right now it's bitter, bitter cold and my knuckle is screaming. arthritis is such a sneaky disease, you know? it'll slink around and find the most inconvenient spot to flare up. back, ankles, etc. are doing fine, but omg, my hand.

*sigh*

at least it made me forget my knee. heh.

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i am now a contracted freelance copywriter, with a pay scale that will allow me to quit this hellhole i am currently employed.

making a living. writing.

this, my friends, is an actual Dream Come True. this is something i have been working my ASS off for since....forever. i am gobsmacked. i thought the whole line about, you know, if you work really hard it'll pay off, or if you pay your dues, good things will happen, but i never believed it. for fuck's sake, i've been working for a long damned time, yanno?

but it's true. as much as it makes me want to vomit to express such a cheesy thing, DREAMS DO COME TRUE.

*gag*

'scuse me. i need a Moment.

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okay. i'm all right. i just had to fight off this overwhelming urge to watch a Debbie Reynolds movie. scary.

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now i know how Peat feels. i know it's small potatoes in comparison to his great success in his Mission To Assimilate The World (*gigglesnort*,) but it feels that big to me.

free.

!!!!

i can do this. i can. i know it's not going to be any easier than anything else of worth i've had to do, but that's okay. i can take a load. but i'm going to love it. every single minute of it. because i earned it, i deserve it, and i'm worth it.

and if i don't think that way, no one else is going to. and if i write it enough times, maybe i'll start to believe it.

yay me!

the Force is with me. :)

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today, i'm taking it easy. the assignments should start to roll by the end of the week, and i'm looking at four days on deck, two of which are sold out. i told Gem i won't leave until she does, even if it takes months. i can't leave her. that would be ninety kinds of wrong. she told me that if i need time to do the copy, we'll work around anything.

(i might think about taking more second shifts -- holy shit man, i forgot how easy that shift is. nothing compared to day shift around here. yes, it's nighttime and yes, i'd be alone. i'll have to think about it.)

she's the Best Evah.

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so far, all is quiet with the Weekend Guy.

but i have a Feeling. not a good one.

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i can't say why this video calls to me. maybe it's the vision of me in the band contributing my Mad Air Bass Guitar Skillz.

heh.



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