The more I thought of it the angrier I got.

I just terminated therapy and she spilled the beans, she told me she knew I was "resisting" so I asked for elaboration.

Well, she said, late all the time, cancellations and not seeming to work (at digging up more pain)at all.

Jesus, why should I keep digging for pain? Why work any harder than I always did? I have been told by more than one and another therapist that I work; that I really work hard in therapy.

Meanwhile, here at home the place is so cluttered and messy I can lose things without even turning around or moving from one position to another.

Sabotaging myself from making a pleasant place for myself to live, as if I don't deserve such a thing, one might say? Or think. Or deduce. Or judge. Or e label.

Ah, how about that. Spell check does not nit pick about an isolated vowel.