Is this thing still here? Oops...

Guess I kind of forgot to write anything for a while. So...life update! I was up in the SF area for a few days, visiting my grandparents, and helping my grandfather take care of a few things around the house, because he's finally bringing my grandmother home from the care facility she's been in. She's been there for about a year now, after a surgeon botched a procedure April before last. She's not really going to get much better than she is now, in all likelihood, and this way, she and my grandfather can be together, instead of him having to drive 20 minutes into the mountains to visit her(which even he acknowledges is a bad idea).

Other than that...I now have a new stereo and CD changer in my car, courtesy of my father. He decided that I should have a CD system so that I wasn't trying to fiddle with a portable while driving. The only thing I need to do now is get the car smog checked, so that I can show the DMV a current certification, and then they will let me transfer the title into my name.

I'm still trying to work up the courage to ask a person I'm interested out on a date. I hate this! It's one of my major remaining stumbling blocks in my life, and I'm having one hell of a time working through it. And I even know why it's such a problem for me; it's a sad rejection issue dating back to junior high. It's true. The only person I have ever actually asked out in my life shot me down in flames, and I was a screwed up enough kid at the time that it has pretty much paralyzed me with indecision and fear whenever I've thought about doing it since then.

It's really pretty simple, I have to get through this, because otherwise I'll stay emotionally paralyzed, and functionally crippled in my relationships with women. I have to get myself together, and ask her out, with the firm understanding that I may hear no as an answer, and that that is normal, and not the end of the world. Oy...