So, it's been more than a month since I've posted anything, but that's not because I haven't had anything to say. It's more that I've been responding to other people's entries, and other than that, I haven't known what I wanted to say for myself, or how to say it. I've just decided that this has gotten ridiculous, so, here I am.

I guess the big thing on my mind recently has been the birthday that just passed, for several reasons. The week before my birthday, I was frustrated, and angry, and depressed. It's not the happiest thing in the world to realize that you are turning 25, still living in your father's house, and going to a community college, no matter how well it may be going(more on that in a bit). There's always the feeling that it isn't supposed to be like this, that I've screwed things up, and should somewhere else in my life by now. And, to an extent, that is true. I did screw up some great opportunities, and I woould have been somewhere else in my life by now if I hadn't. Of course, I have no idea where that would be, and I would have a very different set of friends, so there are definitely good thoughts to be had here.

The week after my birthday, I've mostly stuck to angry/depressed. An uncomfortably low number of people remembered my birthday, which was not a happy thing with all the fun thoughts I had during the week prior. I can almost count the number of people who even acknowledged my birthday on my fingers. This list includes my immediate family, my grandparents on my dad's side (who actually forgot until I saw them the day before, causing them to send a card on my birthday, that got to me mid-week), my aunt on my mom's side and her family, and about 5 friends. I know, I'm being pissy, but when I start feeling isolated, it's never good to have it reinforced.

Anyway, that's my birthday/life kinda sucks rant(oh, I forgot to mention how lonely I am) for now, on to some happier stuff!

School is going very well, it looks like I'm heading for straight A's for a second semester running(I hope, I hope, I hope). My TA work is not too bad, although one of my classes absolutely sucks. They are mostly incredibly immature, and depsite the fact that I've had large classrooms put aside, and supposedly much interest, almost none fo them turn up for my study sessions. I'm almost to the point where I'd be willing to bag the whole damned thing. But, in the end, that's really their loss, not mine, and I get paid for sitting there, whether they show up or not, so, whatever....